I feel like I need to update this thing, but I don’t think I have many words right now. Or maybe this is one of those times where everything will start rushing out as soon as I start typing. I feel like that might be the case.
1. I’m really unhappy with my life right now. I hate my job at the GAP, especially this new position that really isn’t much of anything except for a small pay raise and huge cut to my hours. Struggling to pay bills and hating every minute of being there has led to my desperate search for any full-time job that I might qualify for. I applied today for an Aviation Security Agent job that I think might be really great and I might actually be able to get it. I hope. I hope so much. I would be making three times as much as I do now, have health insurance, paid time off. It would be absolutely amazing. I applied yesterday and I’m really nervous.
2. I might move out of Denver if I can’t find a new job. Maybe I’ll go to Seattle or somewhere in Montana. I can’t tell if I’m unhappy in Denver because of Denver, or just because I’m unhappy with the other aspects of my life.
3. I miss Craig. So much. My best friend is so far away and I’ve lost the person that I did everything with. Jen is great, and some other people at work, but he was my life partner and I miss him. I haven’t had a deep conversation with anyone since he left and I haven’t been to any new restaurants. Things were so much better with him here.
4. Andy lives with me now. It’s good and bad. He isn’t good at living with another person and can be very inconsiderate. But it is nice to have him here, even though I almost never see him. When I see how much he loves his job and how easy it is for him to make friends it really brings me down, because I want that.
5. I’ve changed my lifestyle. I go to the gym every day, I watch what I eat, and I’m working really hard to change my body. I’ve already lost almost 20lbs and I’m so much stronger than I was when I first started. Sometimes I’m caught off-guard by the things my body can do now and it always makes my day.
6. I feel lost and confused and unhappy. I need a change in my life, but I don’t know how to make it happen. I hope this potential new job can be the first step.
I remember posting somewhere once in a thread about why girls aren’t exploited in animation anymore where some guy said, “all the disney girls are drawn to be generally attractive, but I don’t think there are any eye-candy men… or are there? Are there any Disney men that lots of girls like?” and I mentioned Roger. Tons of girls replied agreeing with me and the original guy was like “wait, Roger? from 101 Dalmatians? What’s attractive about him, he’s tall and lanky and has a big nose, he isn’t muscley at all! Wouldn’t you all prefer Gaston or something? Or do you girls think his big nose is indicative of something else?” and I was like “no, you idiot, he’s a silly, goofy guy who likes animals and can play a bunch of instruments, that’s why he’s attractive. What’s the matter with you? Gaston, seriously?”
This is why we need more girls in animation. And more guys like Roger apparently.
This is why I laugh my ass of whenever dudes talk about how men are “objectified” by the media too. Because 9 times out of 10, what men think is “women objectifying men” are characters like Gaston.
And Gaston is NOT a woman-driven fantasy. Gaston is a male wish fulfillment fantasy. Gaston is not what women want, he is what men want to be. He is hyper-masculinity to an extreme degree, dripping with sexism and testosterone. The fact that men think that Gaston is what women want says an awful lot about those men.
While I don’t want to generalize, female fans tend to prefer a very different kind of male hero. We like the Rogers, the Milos, the Hercules. Genuinely kind, often awkward men who are sometimes vulnerable and respectful to women.
Yes, this is a generalization. I own up to that. But I think it’s important to remember that there is often VERY big difference between what MEN want to be and what women WANT in our media.
Reblogging this again because fucking this. And hell, even the muscley dudes (see: Khal Drogo, Hercules, Thor, Captain America) are loved, not because they are muscley, but because they are sweet and loving and adorable. We love Thor because his mispronounces “Hubble” as “Hooble,” not because of what he can do with a hammer.
This post speaks to me on a personal level
I always loved Roger. GOOD LORD WHERE IS MY ROGER I AM SO SAD.